(Joint family problems)

Hi dear friends let me request u one thing first i need only suggestions good one only. I m 25 years married i have one cutie son 50% happy in my life . Actully story starts from when i was in class 8th i love a boy in my school but i never told him after my matric one day he call me on our landline n confess that he is in live with me so ess k baad we talked some tines through net or fone we never met any where . Over religions r change sunni n shiyaa but i love him so time dey k terrey do terrey do i realy try to brake my bachpan engagement but i m failed ..one day i told him that i m getting married n agha just chup sho he says to me its ok go on n dont forget kerp in contact with me.it realy hurts me but what to do after.my marriage i talked him two three timesbut after that i feel it will creat problems n zama more pkaar ba sharminda she ka chata pata olageda i changed.number n every thing Now he us texting me on fb about 2 years baad i ferl good when i talked to him but i dont want to start it again I m happyeithmy hubby but his family is so big joint family n i jyst hate it nothing we can do cant go to outing he says agha ba khafa she khor ba khafa she what to do i needmy own home beshak sookhi rooti khawoon n my good life no tensions ka.ogerey ess problem nishta.n if u go deep inside my hearttgere r too many problems